Thursday, 16 October 2014

A Poem - In Her Days .....

Hello All,

I would like to share a poem I wrote about my grandmother in honor of her life and the struggles she overcame to provide a better life for herself and her family. The decisions she made in her life not only affect her children but every generation that will come afterwards.

I feel very special to have known such a strong and loving woman and she will always have a very special place in my heart.

I hope you enjoy it.

Manuela’s Transition through Life and Time.

In her days, the colour of your skin was more important than language.
In her days, who you married was more important than love.
In her days, children were a requirement or obligation to carry on a bloodline.
In her day… woman was a tool of trade.

The families that lived here were not born here but came.
The families that came here took land and cultivated.
The families that came here sought to gain wealth through agriculture and industry.
She was a part of those families.

Her father was a plantation manager and gain stability through their union.
She became the owner’s son wife and destined to live the life of luxury.
But when her husband died many privileges vanished right before her eyes.
Her children we no longer to be her own.

Heartbroken… lost… not hope in sight.
Everyone turned their back on her… she was all alone.
A mirage was what she was to become as life continued around her.
But she would not bend… she was not a tool.

What they did not expect was her love for her children.
What they did not expect was the fight hidden within.
What they did not expect was the strength she had to move on.
She would not yield to their commands and lose those four that came from her womb.

Train… secretly running away….
Seeking the help of her family.
She sought to save her life and keep her children.
She was determined to be free.

Working in the fields was not a position for her.
Working in the factories was not a position for her.
Working in the lowest occupation was not a position for her.
She was white.

No one would accept her.
Her colour stood out and separated her from the rest.
Her language made her different.
Her struggle was hers to carry alone.

Forced to leave her children with those she thought would love them.
She could only hope they would treat them as their own.
Three were allowed to prepare for the changing world.
One, she learnt was not… how can she protect all?

Where can you go when all they see is colour?
What can you do when the pigmentation of your skin limited you?
How can you survive when you were living below your status?
She was a survivor.

She supervised in the industrial world.
She blended into the domesticated world.
She acquired assistant from people who understood her plight.
She gained… learned… and soon had all four back with her.

Manuela Carreira was not her real name.
The life she led was not what was expected of her.
She defied the colour of her skin and her station in life.
She was not a tool… she was my grandmother.

Now the trains stands still and the plantation fields are gone.
If it was not for her I might not been here, not anyone.
She fought to live her life and be free.
She fought to provide a future for them and for me.

Three generations now live because of her.
I want to be like her.
I will not be a tool.
Powerful, faithful and determined ...


Tuesday, 7 October 2014

I am going to be Published!!

Go guess what ... if you have not figured it out ... I am tickled pink to let everyone know ... one of my books is going to be PUBLISHED!!!!

WOW ... is the first thing I have to say ... the second thing is, it has been a long road to get here but I have finally succeeded in achieving one of my most personal goals. I can honestly say it is an outer body experience, a little overwhelming at times, but the most excited period of my life.

It is a children's novel called Dragon Boyz and it was inspired by my son, who has the most creative and intense mind. He is also the reason why I pursued publishing it when I had completed writing it, because his confidence in me was all I needed to take the next step.

I love to write and have been writing for many years. I have some poetry published, and have collaborated with other in literary pieces, but this book is my baby. It is my first and definitely not my last. I do feel very blessed and there are a lot of people who I am very grateful to for supporting me through this entire process.

My launch date for the children's book is in March 2015. So until then I have to put together a package for my publisher to finalize the completion of the book. For those who are interested in publishing, it is a challenging experience, a lot of work, and you must be willing to always take the next step.


Ok .... so the question to you guys .... which professional picture should I go with? I have not decided if to go with colour or black and white .... and remember it is a children's novel.

So which one would you chose? HELP!!

Tuesday, 23 September 2014

Do you love to read?

The one thing I enjoy is reading. But it is not just reading that I enjoy ... it is being able to just put life's hectic demands aside and make time for myself. It puts me in a good mood and it allows me the chance to see the world or different worlds through someone else's eyes. 

When you have a chance, take up a book and read. Even better... read with your child ... it is amazing to see how their little eyes light up because you are sharing something special with them. Let them see their their own imaginary world can come to life with words. Inspire them. 

Have a great day everyone. 


Thursday, 18 September 2014

When Somebody Closes a Door ... Another One Opens a Window.

This was a line I heard from the Sound of Music, and it has walked with me through all the stages of my life. At the time I first heard it, I obviously did not know the meaning... I was a kid just falling in love with Julie Andrews ... who wasn't. 

However now it carries... so much more meaning. Now I see it as a window to understand change. I see it is an opportunity to believe that something better is coming. It is the keyhole to a positive outlook. It means that life will go on, no matter what, (even if at the time, every bone in your body believed it has just ended). 

So my life has changed .... and it has taken me a long time to get to this point. It took all this time for me to face change and accept it... and see it as a window for better things ... and in a way it has become much better. 

So I start by sharing that I went through some emotional changes ... Not going into details because I am no longer dwelling on it ... but it did not mean what I experienced did not hurt. I hurt like a beeeeep!!! It knocked the wind out of me and left me feeling very hollow inside. In fact I did not know if I would ever be the same ... and in a way I wasn't. But this was what changed the wind in my sail and completely turned me in a new direction. 

I am now sailing in new seas. I am now experiencing new passions, loves and accomplishes I never thought possible. I am happy. 

Don't get me wrong ... I think I did go a little crazy for a while, and all my purposes in life became a little blurry. It was a hard year and I struggled to find my footing... but there was always a silver lining. My Family, Faith and Friends really pulled me through... Thank God. 

I did not want to change for the bad... but a part of me thought it would be sooo easy to go down that road. After all I was the victim ... I did not ask for this change ... why should I care what anyone thought ... but I did care. 

So another ... better window opened ...

I am a Mother of two beautiful children who I love dearly. 

I am a Teacher who enjoy working with kids and believe I have the heart and and patience to make a difference.

I am a Wife... ammmm ... am I really? I will answer that question with ... I am me ... accept me for who I am ... love the good and the bad, understand all my quirks and .... be with me (not because you NEED TO but because you WANT TO).


I am a Writer - I write ... I love to write ... and I love what writing does for me. And very soon I will be achieving one of my greatest dreams ... I will become a published author. 

My Children's Novel "Dragon Boyz" is going to be published... I wrote this but the joy and excitement that is attached to that comment has me wanting to scream from the highest mountain!!! It is an out of body experience and a surreal experience all at the same time. And you know what ... no one can take that away from me!! This was my journey ... my passion .. my dream to achieve ... and I did it.

So today I smile at that closed door and feel free. Today I learn something else about myself when I think about what it means that 'Another One Opens a Window'. 

Today I can climb through another window with anticipation that everything will be fine. 

I wait ... I breath ... and I welcome ....


Jillian Nicole Carreira

Thursday, 13 June 2013

Not a Virtue pick... but it touches on a few that I think are important.

As a teacher who are constantly dealing with little ones it is important to smile and promote these virtues.

I think this is definitely something for the classroom and home.